What I can remember
Is a lot like water
Trickling down a page
Of the most beautiful colors
I can’t quite put my finger
Down on the moment
That I became like this…
You see I am the bravest girl
You will ever come to meet
Yet I shrink down to nothing
At the thought of someone
Really seeing me
I think my heart is wrapped around
And tangled up in winding weeds
But I don’t wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet
Are trembling
And every word I say I’m stumbling
I will bare it all… watch me unfold
Unfold
These hands that I hold
Behind my back are
Bound and broken
By my own doing
And I can’t feel
Anything anymore
I need a touch to remind me
I’m still real
But I don’t wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet
Are trembling
And every word I say I’m stumbling
I will bare it all… watch me unfold
Unfold
My soul
It’s dying to be free
You see… I can’t live the rest of my life
So guarded
It’s dying to be free
It’s up to me to choose…
What kind of life I lead
Cuz I don’t wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet
Are trembling
And every word I say
I will bare it all… watch me unfold
Unfold
I will allow someone to love me
I will allow someone to love me.
The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time
Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder
Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again
Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life
Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder
Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody’s ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name
Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again
Having Performace Management(PM) 1st mid-term this Wed afternoon. OH no……. Haven’t started revising yet. Just finished my Business Finance(BF) assignment. Gtta finish up 24 ques of BF tutorial for tomorrow. Not forgetting, PM’s tutorial too. Guess I’ll need to burn midnight oil to finish all by tonight. *sob sob*
Sometimes I dare not think much. I’m still afraid to step forward, though am trying to take a little step at each time. Can he wait till I reached the destination? Let God leads as I really dare not think of what the end result would be. I have so many other things to focus at the moment.
And finally, the past is willing to tell the reason why it’s back looking for me. Being courageous this time, I told how I feel at the moment and the past is always a past. No point turning back and look at it. However, I do afraid that I will hurt him through what I’ve said. But, it is just weird as he was the one who let it go and ended up he’s the one wanting it back or so? Things changed. A lot and everything is different now. I already had forgive and forget.
God has always been there for me, though sometimes His presence is silence, as if He is not there when I needed Him. But, deep inside I know He is there somehow or rather. He showed me favours and favours, time to time. I thank You for all the problems that I need to go through, but yet You always gave me enough grace to handle them.
Today, I went Amcorp Mall to look for my ex-boss to get on their company’s M/A and A/A. Ok, though we didn’t manage to get much out of it because my company is just a very small private company. Hence, most of the requirements of our questions weren’t answerable. Anyhow, my boss gave us a great idea. Not gonna write it here how…haha…
I was hoping to get back to work some this coming sem break, so ya, the place was still vacant since I last leave two sems ago. Another issue I need to settle was to get housemates in to my place when Woon Hui and the rest are graduating this coming May. I’ve planned to ask my ex-boss about her unit, which is also in C3 but in the 4th floor. Today, she just asked whether I have anyone wanting to shift in May. Wow, bingo! I can take over her unit! She said she is able to negotiate the price, as now many are trying to negotiate their house rentals to a lower rate as there isn’t any intake anymore.
Then, about search for housemates…haha…one funny story to tell. Some of my ex-housemates are keen to move in together with me due to some problems they faced in their current place. So, I’m going to be housemate with my ex-housemates again. Weird huh? I guess it is once in a lifetime experience to have such funny story in life. Somehow, life is interesting. *smile*
About stepping down from the camp viceperson, I’m thankful that some started to understand my situation. Really thank God who answer my prayer that they’ll really try to understand me, also for never cease to support me.
That is all for the time being. Still stuck with many many stuff in my head to settle. Give me wisdom, O Lord!
Jz received my Performance Management assignment question today. Submitting it on the 22nd Feb (week 7). Sigh…a whole lot of things to do.
Had a crucial moment when we couldn’t get Chin Teck Plantation Bhd company’s time to let us in for interview for our company law assignment. I don’t know why Accounting lecturers setting high standard stuff for us. Because we are to be trained professionals next time? I supposed so, since we can get exemption for most of the papers of the professional bodies like CIMA and ACCA. You can’t be getting an easy kinda study when what you learn will be exempted by professional bodies, right? Anyway, back to the Law assignment. My team member tried calling the manager 3 times and I guess he got pretty fed up. Prayed in my heart silently that God will provide a company soon. Or else, we’ll never finish in time. Plus, that company’s manager or person-in-charge must be kind enough to entertain us.
I didn’t think of the company I worked with during my 3 months break last two years. I thought it was a partnership company or so. However, quickly came back and checked my payslip last time and it’s a private limited company. Thank God for it. I called my ex-boss and she’s nice enough, saying she can help. We got to have the company’s annual report, memorandum of association and articles of association. It is easy to get hold of an annual report of any company. It is the M/A and A/A that are hard. Basically, M/A is a document which are externally for shareholders about the issuing and payment of shares of the company. A/A is about the internal management tasks and the operating activities of the company, which is a bit kinda internal documents that I think not many companies would entertain us. However, everything is settle, yet I need to travel all the way to PJ on Thurs to collect the docs and do some interviews like who is the promoter(s) of the company, the object clause, pre-incorporation contract, etc. I guess this is the first step to train my members and equipping them for our thesis.
Performance Management (Management Accounting II) mid-term I
Week 6
Taxation mid-term
Business Finance mid-term I
Company Law mid-term
Week 7
Audit practice mid-term
Week 8
Business finance assignment
Audit practice assignment
Week 9
Company Law assignment
Week 10
Taxation assignment II
Business finance mid-term II
God, please guide me through all these weeks. Time doesn’t seem enough. Anyway, am glad Thaipusam was declared as public holiday by the Prime Minister today, which makes UTAR declaring it as a holiday too. I have an extra day to study.
Another Performance Management assignment duedate to be fitted in. However, haven’t received any questions yet. Feel like crying seeing all these busy weeks that I’m going to face. :(
I’m in the campus’ ICTC. Wondering why am I here, writing this blog?
Something hilarious yet stupid I call it, because I came for lecture class when there is none at this time. I thought my class was at 8am. Don’t ask me why I couldn’t get my timetable right. Anyway, the funny part was that I went out to wait for my friend, Chin Choon as usual and was pretty feeling not right when she still didn’t turn up. Oh well, I thought she might be sick or something, however she would have told me last night if yes. Or maybe class was cancelled and I didn’t know about it? Yet, somehow there must be people telling me about it.
So, I left a message to her and said I’ll walk to campus first. Reaching the 3rd floor, KA 316 (where my class will be LATER), no one was there. I had this uncomfortable feeling, “Oh no….class is really cancelled and no one tells me about it?” Or I came to class earlier? Quickly, I took out my file inside my bag and check it. Haha…almost kill myself for laughing at the stupid mistake I had. Oh well, now I’m waiting for the time to tick to 8am sharp and study in the library. Wanted to go in earlier but no one was inside.
Got these two clips from Kah Fai two weeks ago. He eventually used his handphone to record our live performance on TV3 during last Christmas.
Anyway, I’ll post them up here. Oh please do look away when the cam focuses on me at one part of the clip. I look superb horrible.. Aiks…of all, they focused on me at that particular shot.
