Morphing Stories

Reading the book of Titus. I thought I’ve already made a decision to reject. Don’t know why I’m stuck with the dilemma after I thought I had the answer. Is that a sign from You? That I’d be able to cope everything even I accept the offer?

In the same way, encourage the young men to live wisely. And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of integrity and seriousness of your teaching. Teach the truth so that your teaching can’t be criticized. Then those who oppose us will be ashamed and have nothing bad to say about us.

~Titus 2:6-8~

These few verses struck me. So now am I sticking to really try to put myself back in CF or accept the offer or I have the strength to do both? God, please tell me what You want me to do. I just want Your will in this decision-making process.

[11:38 pm]

Had CF committee meeting this morning and we evaluated each other during the meeting. Not many came but the meeting still went on. Though most of their comments were good..and also bad, but I think I wasn’t that good as they said. As least, I think I didn’t really put that much sometimes for CF CG, as I was bz with my stuff. Just tried to persevere on. I know I could do better. Wish I have more time in a day, but I know God gave us 24 hours a day to manage our time well.

Suddenly, the dilemma came back when I was trying to nap a while before dinner, as in whether I should agree on taking up Ms Angelina’s offer. Well, it was my first reason to be under her because she says that she have grant that will support her research and might be able to travel a bit to do data collection. It is a great opportunity and learning experience ground for me, but I really don’t know how much time I can give it. I can’t just leave CG aside like that before having any one handling it. It’ll be irresponsible. Plus, with my studies, I really don’t know.

I wish I’m an Ironwoman or something. Guess I’m somewhat like Riana now. Wants to grab all opportunities without having opportunity cost occurred.

[10:01 pm]