Feelings & Thoughts


We talked. Deep inside I know he loves me as much as I do. Seriously, for a while I thought of it letting go, but it is hard sometimes. Knowing I might regret it later. But yet, at the same time, it hurts when he doesn’t know what I’m thinking. Or was it a guy thing, to be lack sensitivity? Or it it just us – girls to be overwhelmed with our own feelings and emotions?

Anyhow, the talk went on, however, my decision is still to go to SIB. Maybe in the future, if our relationship develops further then only I’ll consider to attend a church together.

What is life to each of us? To some, it may be just a stop before going to heaven. To others, it may be the process of growing up, earning a bulk, get a house, a car, a wife/husband, have kids, grow old, then die. I think all these sound a lil boring.

I think life is an adventure. No doubt, the adventure seems to be lesser when you are working, but it is up to ourselves to bring the adventure back. Even we face any difficulties, hoping to come to a detour or an exit road, where we can head next, make full use of the problem that you are facing. I came across people who are so overprotected back at home, they missed the real adventure outside (FYI, I do not refer you to leave any of your kids or whosoever outside, letting them survive on their own). A balance of both is important. Some are so afraid of leaving home, venturing to a new place because of fear, or perhaps missing the comfort zone they are in.

Remember, no matter where you are, God is always there. Furthermore, having to telling yourself that some things that it may be only the one life time opportunity will help you overcome your fear. Some things will not come for a second chance. Parts and parcels in life are meant to make us stronger in character and faith.

GO AND GET YOUR ADVENTURE! AND LEAVE YOUR FEAR BEHIND!

Carl Fredricksen, a shy and quiet young boy, meets an energetic and outgoing bucktoothed barefooted tomboy named Ellie, discovering they share the same interest in exploration as their hero, famed explorer Charles F. Muntz. Ellie expresses her desire to move her clubhouse to Paradise Falls in South America, a promise she makes Carl keep. Carl and Ellie wed and grow old together in the old house where they first met while making a living as a toy balloon vendor and a zookeeper respectively. Unable to have children, they also try to save up for the trip to Paradise Falls but other financial obligations arise. Just as they seem to finally be able to take their trip, Ellie dies of old age, leaving Carl living alone in their home as a sour recluse with nothing to live for and missing his wife terribly. As the years pass, the city grows around Carl’s house with construction as Carl refuses to move. After a tussle with a construction worker over Carl’s broken mailbox, the court orders Carl to move into Shady Oaks Retirement Home. Carl comes up with a scheme to keep his promise to Ellie, and uses his old professional supplies to create a makeshift airship using tens of thousands of helium balloons which lift his house off its foundations. Russell, a Wilderness Explorertrying to earn his final merit badge for “Assisting the Elderly”, has stowed away on the porch after being sent on a literal snipe hunt by Carl the day before.

After a storm throws them around for a while, they find themselves across a large ravine facing Paradise Falls. With their body weight providing ballast allowing Carl and Russell to pull the floating house, the two begin to walk around the ravine, hoping to reach the falls while there’s still enough helium in the balloons to keep the house afloat. As they walk towards Paradise Falls, Russell finds a colorful tropical bird which he names Kevin, not realizing that the bird is actually female. They later run into a dog named Dug with a translating collar that lets him speak. They discover Dug’s owner is Charles Muntz, who has remained in South America for several decades to find and bring back a large species of bird (which turns out to be Kevin) in order to restore his reputation after bringing back a skeleton of the bird and being called a fraud because scientists thought he faked the evidence. Carl is initially thrilled to meet his hero, but when he realizes that Muntz is after Kevin and will kill without a moment’s thought in order to capture her alive, Carl takes steps to save the bird and escape from Muntz. Thanks to Kevin and Dug they escape Muntz’s pack of vicious dogs, led by Alpha, but Kevin is injured during the escape.

As Carl and Russell assist the injured Kevin to her chicks, Muntz and his dogs arrive in his airship, led by a tracking device in Dug’s collar, and sets Carl’s house on fire, forcing Carl to choose his house over Kevin. Muntz and his dogs quickly capture the bird and fly off. Though Carl successfully gets the house on the ground overlooking Paradise Falls per Ellie’s wish, he has lost Russell’s favor. Carl, settling down in his house, finds Ellie’s childhood scrapbook and discovers her mementos of her life with Carl after they were married, and a final note from her thanking Carl for her adventure and an encouragement for him to go on his own. Invigorated by Ellie’s last wish, he goes outside to see Russell, only to find him giving chase to Muntz. Carl lightens the weight of his house by dumping furniture and his possessions, allowing him to chase after Muntz in his house with Dug by his side.

Russell enters the airship through a window, but is captured by the dogs. He is tied up and left to fall to the earth, but Carl saves him and keeps him tied up in the house. Carl and Dug board the ship, and are able to lure the guard dogs away from Kevin to free her. Carl and Muntz duel face to face and fight (Muntz with a sword, Carl with his cane), while Dug is able to wrest control of the dogs and the dirigible from Alpha. Russell frees himself but clings to a lifeline as he finds the house in a dogfight with biplane fighters. When Carl shouts for help, Russell distracts the dog pilots and regains control of the house to rescue his friends, who are now on top of the airship. In pursuit, Muntz shoots out some of the balloons, causing the house to land and slide off the airship. Carl manages to trick Muntz inside the house while saving Russell, Dug, and Kevin; Muntz falls to his doom, while Carl’s house drifts off into the clouds — a loss Carl gracefully accepts as being for the best.

Carl takes Muntz’s dirigible and returns Kevin to her chicks, and then returns Russell and Dug back to the city. When Russell’s father snubs his son’s Senior Explorer ceremony, Carl fulfills that role himself to proudly present Russell with his final badge, the grape soda badge that Ellie presented to Carl when they first met. Afterward, Carl, reinvigorated in both spirit and body from his adventure, becomes a cheerfully active community volunteer with a strong father like relationship with Russell, Dug, and the other Wilderness Explorers. His house, through happenstance, has landed exactly where Ellie envisioned it — overlooking Paradise Falls.

*Adapted from Wikipedia*

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This is one of the most heart-warming and melting movie! It is sooo touching. True love is shown in this movie – husband & wife, friendship with human kind and animals. It is so much worth movie compared to G-Force that I went to yesterday. Oh well, those hamsters/guinea pigs do look cute anyhow :)

I’m heading for the Ugly Truth later. What a Raya movie-marathon I am having! *gosh* I need to study tomorrow.

I haven’t been updating my blog for quite awhile. Well, at least it wasn’t that often as I did previously. Work has taken my life away. Not to mention, my CPU had been out for order for a week. So definitely, I couldn’t access to the Internet.

Work is crazy! Especially yesterday. I almost did a double payment in USD. *oopps* Other than that, things are going well. At least, I don’t hate the place I’m working despite me disliking my job. Accounts is so boring. Anyhow, I still enjoy my workplace. That is the most important thing for the time being.

Gonna enjoy my loooong Hari Raya weekend! :)

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I think I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

Now I am working, I am looking forward for my pay :) For my first pay, I would not be able to enjoy much as I need to pay off my ACCA P1 paper fee – £78.

However, I do hope I can go have a nice meal somewhere with it.

And I seriously need to save for this:

I was at Symphony today for an interview. Yeah, I know, I had an offer de and I am very very keen with Leighton instead of today’s company. But because the finance manager yesterday looked a slight blur (perhaps because he just joined the firm 2 months), so some advised I should just go have a look at today’s company.

But when I woke up, I was relunctant to go actually. And *sigh* waited quite a while because so many candidates but it is quite a good post and company too but my heart is still with the construction one.

On my way back to the LRT, just realised I had two missed call. Wheee…it is from Leighton. Asking can I start tomorrow instead of next Tues because they are having some system integration and would be great if I get in tomorrow. Well, I agreed. So I’m officially working again tomorrow.

Feeling happy, excited, nervous yet don’t-feel-like-working syndrome is coming back hahaha…so ironic. Perhaps I was more preparing my heart for next Tues and not tomorrow in a short notice. Oh well, everything will work out well in the hands of the Lord.

Dear Father Lord,

I pray for tomorrow, a great start in a new place, new environment. I pray for great favour upon me between my manager, colleagues and other staffs. I also pray for wisdom in my job and studies to cope between both. Allow me to learn as much as I can for my job and studies, may Your strength be sufficient for me.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I’m hired! wheeeee….

Thank you Lord. Though it may be a tough job this time in an international company. I pray Your favor and blessings will be upon me in this job. And of course, to last long :) At least long enough that one should.

I am currently listening to Ps Joseph Prince’s sermon on ‘Finding the Right Partner‘. I think it is practically another confirmation from God upon my previous thinking.

I bet many still remember about my dispute on the holding hands part between me and TJ. In the post of LOVE, God revealed Himself to me in Joshua Harris’ book about thanking your man if he ever respect you or tell you his struggles. For example, Joshua mentioned that he told Shannon about his struggles when she is wearing certain short shorts and she quickly put them away. That is the part which I felt God was talking to me because TJ did the same thing. For this, I know and recalled that men somehow are weak. Especially in this area and we should be guarding them as much they are guarding ours. Even though Joshua has a example guidelines of his and Shannon written in the book, Boy Meets Girl, which includes holding hands (which I initially doubt since they can, why can’t we) I am ok with it when this post was written previously. Because every single person’s love life is different which includes their views.

Ps. Prince was mentioning about pro-long courtship in his second part of the sermon and he mentioned about purity. He says it is normal to hold hands, having little pecks but nobody have the right to give a clear cut where to stop. What is more if it is a long courtship. You may be holding hands after second or third date, then your guy is freakily happy and say “That’s it. We will stop here.” However, then he wants more. He will give pecks on cheeks, then later little pecks on lips. If it is a 5-year courtship, where will you be? Where will be the excitement left for marriage?

When I was listening to it minutes ago, I was like, “Wow! God, it seems like You are blessing me with what I am hearing and what I was convicted when You last spoke to me. No doubt, I still wish I could just at least hold hands like any other couples as I stroll along the street. But today, I wanna thank You that I gave even that minor desire to You on that day.” And “at least” will never stop there once you have started on it.

I guess somehow I was still rather shy/embarass to say the real feeling about this when someone else asked, “How come so long still not even in the stage of holding hands?” I answered that person, “I don’t know. Ask him (TJ).” God, today I ask of Your boldness to speak to me. I think I was fearful, fearful of what the world is today. Yes, holding hands is ok. Nobody condemned it is wrong, just me and TJ’s principles for the time being and I was afraid people will condemn me instead with such “conservative” mind. I was angry and frust over it earlier when me and him were at this topic, but after the Lord revealed to me, I understand His will for both of us.

This is just something I wanna share for today. I would post up the first part sermon (out of five) in my BoxNet sharing widget on the bottom right-hand corner (14 files). Feel free to download and let God bless your relationship or your search of your life partner! :)

The greatest love of all…

Is be able to have a child’s love

Waking each morning with your child’s eyes on You

Is having the love that keeps you believing in brighter days

Believing that dreams do come true

that give you a brighter future.


Happiness is when…

Is in your heart

Rainbows to every gray sky

With the promises and new covenant that the Father had made to His child.



A child’s love…

Is forever lasting

No matter how far You are

It will never go away

Your child’s home is in Your heart.

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